Winner, Australian Human Rights Commission’s Award for Literature, 2014

The Newling family story appeared on ABC TV's Australian Story, 2015

Christopher was 17 and he had everything to live for.

He was smart, charismatic, loving, and deeply loved, and a champion rugby player. Yet behind the veneer of a popular and confident athlete he was struggling. Diagnosed a year earlier with depression and severe anxiety, he hid his fears from family and friends. 

Finally, Christopher chose to stop fighting.

This is the story of Christopher's shocking death and its tragic aftermath for the family. It is also the story of a mother and father's love, and their determination not to lose another son to the temptation of taking his own life. Honest, raw, and deeply moving, Jayne's account brings to life the visceral experience of grief and the long, painful journey towards finding meaning in life again. This is compelling and inspirational reading for anyone affected by the death of a young person.

'… a faultless gaze into the human heart…' 

Missing Christopher is the story of a mother's journey through inconsolable grief after the death of her teenage son. Powerfully written, it's an eloquent reminder that our hold on life is tenuous, and communication, love and togetherness are the key to surviving such a tragedy.

A memoir by Jayne Newling